I tend to think when I’m blue that the rest of the world is feeling fabulous. And I’ve been blue recently. But the last few days, I’m starting to notice that while not everyone might as blue as me, there’s still a general attitude of “Boy am I glad this year is nearly finished” and “Boy I really hope the next year is going to be better.”

I see evidence of this even from folks I don’t know well.

I missed an appointment with a new colleague Elisabeth recently. We both do work related to relationships. It was a series of events that made me miss our meeting, but really and truly it was my fault. Normally the events wouldn’t be issues, but my coping skills are horrendously weak right now.

I was ashamed and I apologized fully to her. I don’t miss meetings.

She said she understood fully.

She also told me many people lately are finding out “even all our tried and true ways that we have figured out work for us…are not so dependable any more. It’s almost like having to relearn (a) language.” She added that perhaps some of the shifting in my life is related to this.

I believe her. I believe that I am learning some things- like certain attitudes, assumptions, or ways I cope- in my life that once worked for me, aren’t working anymore.

I might have to look at people, places, and things differently.

I might have to take a different path than I assumed I would take. But I can only hope the journey is amazing and the destination is a place of pure joy.

I believe my best friend Randy who says better things are ahead. I believe the world and all the people in it are changing for the better.

I believe in Magic.